Long time no writing

It´s been a while, not doing so good and don´t know what to write really. Maybe I´ll update later tonight.

Lost it all

what have you done to me, I used to be okay with being alone. I used to like it. felt free with just being alone. Now I cannot breath without you. You took my heart when you left. I want you back. Why won´t you talk to me, listen to me, just give me a chance. I miss you so much it kills me. I was doing so good when I was with you, I had a reason to live. Now I don´t have that anymore...it´s all gone. Lost the sparkle. Lost the will to keep on going.

Starve the pain away

Look into my eyes
Can you see how much they hurt
Look into my soul
it´s a picture of a mirror
of a garden, red alert
Look into my heart
there´s a hole there that bleeds
touch my hand, it´s cold
I lost my goal, now starving is all my body needs


Tomorrow is the first day
of a day made in hell
tomorrow is the last day
that you will hear me say his name
yesterday was too late
today not soon enough
tomorrow will be perfect
perfection of a dove
I will hold the blade against my wrist
and see the blood reappear
tomorrow will be the first day
when I wont have you in here
I will starve the pain away
I will make you disappear
There will not come another day
when you will look at me and see
fat

As long as

As long as he leaves me alone
I´ll be strong
As long as he is gone
out of my life
I know I am not wrong
He can break my heart
over again
He can crush me apart
I´ll stand up, no pain
Life is love
but love´s not life
like a free little dove
I´ll fly through the night
As long as he leaves me alone
I´ll be allright

Oh Mother

Dear moon hear me
as I cry this silent cry inside
Pretty stars, don´t fear me
My ugliness fades
as the night comes alive
I measure my tigh,
too big,
too broad,
too fat
I pull in my waist
knowing it´s not thin enough yet
I have a long way to walk
before the sunlight will shine
I have a sad song to sing
maybe then my madness will die
I pray to you mother please save my soul
Lift me up and take me in
help me reach my goal

Lyrics by Pink

"Long Way To Happy"

One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
Do you know I had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottem of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart yeah yeah

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way

It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy

Please

Are you aware of the fact that you are hurting me more this way? By just ignoring me, tells me that I am worth nothing. Remember how you told me about those other girls, and how you used to treat them...you are treating me the same way now and I know I am not worth that. I haven´t done anything wrong, besides from the fact that I have told you I like you a lot.Please just give us a chance, I know it would work out in the end.